Falling in..Love?
1:08 PM
Gaah! I really don't know what to do now. It seems like I really am falling for him. But it can't be! No no no and no! It's wrong. ABSOLUTELY wrong. And besides, it hurts. It hurts because it's like I'm always hoping and praying that he feels the same way, too, when in fact, he don't. Although he does not show whether he really feels the same or not, still, I'm somehow convinced that he really don't. I don't want to wait for nothing. For the impossible. For a miracle. It hurts. SUPER. It's the first time I felt this way to someone and damn! It's painful. Sigh. Right at this moment, while typing this out, I'm missing him. I feel like I badly wanna see him. I wanna talk to him. But I know I couldn't. Sigh.
To "Dridcohn" (it's just a code name for 'him'): I'm tired of thinking about you. I'm tired of crying over you. I'm tired of waiting for you. I'm tired of looking at you. I'm tired of trying to make you smile or laugh at me. I'm tired of getting your attention. I'm tired of waiting for your love. I'm tired of waiting for nothing.
Pwede ba, ikaw naman? Ako naman mahalin mo? Isipin mo? Iyakan mo? Tingnan mo? Patawanin o pangitiin mo? Pwede ba attensyon ko naman kunin mo? Pwede ba 'yun? Quote to share:
In the end, it's not about how many breaths you took but how many moments took your breath away.My status:
Almost every second I am thinking of him. Almost every minute I am missing him. Almost every hour I wish to talk to him. And almost everyday I want to see him. My mind told me to stop loving him while my heart says go. My mind wants to protect me from being hurt while my heart wants me to be happy. Who should I follow? I want to follow my heart but how could I when I know my mind is right? That I'll be hurt if I continue hoping for him to love me back. That I'll be hurt if I continue waiting for nothing. That I'll be hurt if I continue waiting for a miracle that's really very impossible to happened.Wuah! Summer Vacation na! :((
10:59 PM
GOSH! Instead of being happy, I'm really very sad. It seems like I don't want to end this school year. WAHH!! There's so much things that happened. Sad and fun ones. Math Jingle, MAPEH folk dance, High School Days, Pastaran, Dramatic Monologue, Cheska and Sir Eps moments (HAHAHA! xD), DomKate (ayiiee! xP), Science Club Tour (GOSH! The adventure! xP), "Textmate" (PRINCE DAIKI and MICHELLE) and a lot more!! =)) Although some are not that great but I REALLY ENJOYED BEING A SOPHOMORE STUDENT!! Haha! I can't wait to see my Platinumianz again. I wonder who will be our teacher when we're juniors already? Hehe.
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If it's because of his/her lips, eyes and great body, then it's not love. It's LUST. If it's because of his/her intelligence and insight about life, then it's not love. It's ADMIRATION. If it's because he/she cries everytime you try to leave, then it's not love. It's PITY. If it's because he/she makes you forget to sleep and study, then it's not love. It's INFATUATION. LOVE is when you don't know why you seem to be attracted to that person. Love has its own reason. And that reason is unknown. (:[It's a little long. I KNOW! xD]
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I'm confused. Can you help me?Disappointments
7:50 PM
It's really hard to disappoint someone who expects a lot from you. Especially, in school. And when the whole class do. Sigh. It's hard if the whole class disappoints the teachers. Sigh. Do we really have to be the best 'coz we're one of the highest section? Can't we be like the ones in the lower section? We can't always have good grades. But somehow, I know it's our fault. We have been reviewing for days and what do we have in our results? Only 8 passed. Nobody even got a line of 9. The highest is 89 or 89 below. Imagine, from the 37 students in II-Platinum, only 8 passed? Sigh. I know our teacher really felt bad about it since, like I said, we've been reviewing for days and that's how low we got?! I know it. We took for granted all the great and good things they've done to us. We took for granted the kindness of our teachers. 'Yung nakikijam sila, nakikitawa, nakikijoke, ALL! And I know it's really not good. Sigh. I just hope that our teachers will forgive us and give us chance. Although the school year is ending, still, hope they could give us the chance to prove that we're responsible, too. That we could still give the best of our best and meet their expectations. Someday, if not now then when we're in third year or fourth year. I know Platinumianz could change. For the better.
Quote to share: You wouldn't know how deep the pool is if you're not going to dive in.
My status: Too down to be me. :(
YIPEE! We're going to dance in E-Mall! xxD
1:03 PM
And MAPEH Group 2 Bumayah dancers is IN!! WOOHOO!! We're going to dance in the E-Mall!! Isn't it great?! :)) It's my second time now!! WOOHOO!! First was when we're in First Year, dancing B'lit B'laan with so uncomfortable costume. And now, dancing Bumayah with a (finally!) comfortable costume and props! :)) I so can't wait for it. But, I'm a little sad. Group 1, the 'Banga' dancers, weren't able to be accepted. Anyways, like they said, there's always a next time, right? :)) I so can't wait!! It would be this coming March 13, 2010! To all Cebuanos, to all people near Elizabeth Mall, WATCH IT!! :)) It would be in the 4th floor. The only way to get there is to use the elevator near the Entrance across Cebu Coliseum! :))
I'll be back next time! And I'm so gonna post the pics here, if there would be! :)) BYIEEE!! xxD
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There are some defeats more triumphant than victories.My status:
How can it be? It's wrong yet it feels so right. I never knew this would go deeper and deeper. I never expected to like you when I thought I'm getting over you.
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